hi there friends! like wowwww it’s been a while since I’ve wrote a post. sorry about that, i blame grad school ;).
this has been something the Lord has placed on my heart lately, and it’s also filtered throughout majority of conversations I’ve had in the last few weeks:
it’s okay, to not be okay.
so often we feel like we have to project to those around us that we have it all together. like we have to pretty up our struggles with fake smiles and muttered, “i’m fine’s.”
for me (and i think maybe for you too), i don’t like showcasing my weaknesses. my current weaknesses especially. sure i don’t mind sharing what Jesus has already brought me through, but talking about what I’m struggling with right now in this moment?…no thank you, i’ll pass.
what i’ve failed to realize for so long is that allowing myself to be vulnerable with others can create an opportunity for “grace to fill the gap” ( as Steven Furtick says). it opens up a space for my brothers and sisters in Christ to share in the burdens of this world with me. we are not alone in this, friends. take heart in that.
i’m reminded of Nehemiah, chapter 1. in commentary by Charles Spurgeon, he talks about Nehemiah’s heart being with the Jewish people through the hardship and struggles they were facing, even if he himself was not at that moment intimately acquainted with them.
“At the time I was in the palace complex at Susa. Hanani, one of my brothers, had just arrived from Judah with some fellow Jews. I asked them about the conditions among the Jews there who had survived the exile, and about Jerusalem….When I heard this, I sat down and wept. I mourned for days, fasting and praying before the God-of-Heaven.” (Nehemiah 1:1-4 MSG)
God designed us to share our burdens with each other. We are meant to have open, vulnerable, and honest community.
let’s stop being afraid to share. let’s stop being afraid to be real. i’m tired of the stained glass charade.